i want to tell the world that i am glad that i met crystal shong. she is a very good friend of mine.

i have never been the type of person to stand up against anybody if they say or do mean things to me. when anyone embarassed me or say stuff about me, i will ignore it and pretend they're not talking about me or just plain laugh at it like they were just joking. i can't believe how pathetic i was. people making fun of me and i even laughed at myself. how stupid can i be.

i met crystal in 2009 during the singtel grid girls competition. to be honest, she was the person i spoke most to during the very first meet-up of the top 40-something... i remembered we both came in late and we were the last to leave and we left the building together talking about this guy friend of hers in australia. the whole time during the competition, we didn't really talk that much cos honestly, i was abit scared of her when we got to know all of the girls abit more. funny how she is the only one i kept most in contact with after the whole thing.

i'm proud to say, i admire her. i've never met such an angry girl and a girl with alot of guts. she never lets anyone push her around nor does she give a damn about rules and when you're being an ass, she gives you shit for it. she doesn't care if the whole world hates her. she doesn't care if her friends turned their backs on her. she is a nice girl, but if you step on her toes, she is not afraid of giving you shit. i was afraid of her at first. i did not want to offend her in any way or even get really close to her. but when i get to know her, i like her. i like her attitude. the kind of attitude which i don't possess, but i wished i do. i learnt alot from her. i learnt to step up and defend myself and not let anyone push me around.

makes me realised that no one in this world is going to stand up for you. you have only yourself to depend on. when someone is being mean to you, you can't just cry home to your mother or your boyfriend. or even, god forbid, sit quietly and be emo and miserable about your life. you have to go to the person and say "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?!"

i did that today and boy, am i glad i did that. I did it. no one else did it for me. I did it. everyone else said its just a misunderstanding, its just a small matter you shouldn't get too worked up about it blah blah blah blah... you are a coward and you are wrong. all i know if shit gets thrown at you, you gotta show them you can't be messed around with.

thank you crystal. you are my inspiration. :)